First cry in the court - 30/12/2009

Well today is the selection of next year b-boys i still remember when i was in primary school because i got blister on my foot then i take this chance not to go for selection for that year de tennis competition so i cannot effort to lose the last chance to play for fajar so played the first few mintues of the first quarter.. jump ball almost lose to kaiming but well still manage to tip the ball to sean i think.. after awhile hand cannot tahan liao asked coach to sub me so sat down till first quarter end.. second quarter started coach asked me weather if i can still play? well if you were me no matter how your hand hurts you will still play one right so i told him ok liao.. played awhile suddenly got the feeling to just don't care about my hand and just try to put the ball in the ring so off i go but i miss cause i can only use 3 finger on my left hand to shoot.. missed, free trow had some fear to it as competition had shoot air ball on free trow before so i was scare to miss that 2 open shots, forced my hand to shoot out that ball not even touching the ring but also never air ball.. after that i've walked out of the free trow zone.. tears started rolling down not because that my hand is pain.. is just that i felt that i'm so uesless and helpless without my left hand.. i don't like that feeling just thinking that the oldest player is crying in front of the whole team what kind of senior is that.. coach sub me out all the way when to water cooler to flush my hand with cool water didn't help.. after that when back be refree i know i don't know how to be one but what else can i still do.. Thanks for all those who asked me if i'm ok all that :D i know when anything happen i will still have my basketballer who will help me to get up on my feet..

Jasper don't feel gulity not you who cause me hurt my hand :D is my god dam sucking temper who caused all this.. Only hope, i want my hand to recover fast before my competition..

Okok that all finger starts to hurt again.. going to see chinese doctor later on tomorrow count down you will see me bringing my pig hand along...